hey everyone that takes the time to look at this question and answer.Lately i been very worried about becoming schizophrenic i been so worried that its tooken over my life at the age of 17 i gained anxiety when i was 16 after smoking marijuana with my cousin and had a bad trip i havent been near it in 6 months,but due to my "anxiety" i think im becoming schizophrenic really...i have a hard time concentrating on what people are saying,i lost all my motivation for school (completely), im pretty sure my iQ went downhill and im slowly becoming a failure,i thought i heared loud whispers this morning but im not sure because i was half asleep,im very uninterested in making friends just dont care too much,i love spending time alone like playing the game listening to music staying inside etc,i have severe derealization,paranoid but not extreme more like scared of people coming in my home killing me when im sleep so i sleep with a knife sometimes,everytime in in the shower i always peek out of it because i think someones coming in the bathroom,very depressed lately kind of thinking about suicide because im losing my mind,i tend to avoid social activities,im really scared of becoming schizophrenic so i look to hear voices like when i hear a little noise i think i just heared a voice, i have a deteroiation in hygiene, i laugh when my mom fuss at me (innapropiate laughter), i been very forgetful,i have the inability to cry.Doctors and therapist all tell me i have severe anxiety but i dont think so, what can i do to remove all my stress and anxiety without medication?because i hear medication make people kill and sometimes bring out manic or psychotic depression so im scared to take them.Also my uncle has schizophrenic he got it when he was 15 due to abuse of drugs on my mother side other then that no one else in my family has that disease.keep in mind im 17. and btw by my typing does it seem coherent? if thats how you spell it.